so bad at subject lines…
Well would you look at that! I neglect my blog for another month or so and come back to find that spam bots have flooded me with comments. Some of them were actually funny.
So what have I been up to, you ask. Same old shit really. Work, home, store. Lather, rinse, repeat. Work has been a pain. Now that the secretary’s retired, the other two have gone back to the way things were before, meaning I am once again the odd man out in my department. Things at home have been okay. The squid and I have started having a picnic at a park every Saturday. I’ve been reluctant to take her out in public simply because she’s having another screamy tantrum phase. Resumed Friday outings with Ennui Prayer, for the most part. Sometimes I get upset about silly things, but then I think about just how silly that is and get over it.
Ennui Prayer and I went to see the new Star Trek movie on Friday, and it was awesome. This week we’ll go see the Terminator movie.
That’s it. I’ll try not to wait another month to update again.
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Hey there, neglected blog!
Wow! I have seriously neglected this blog. It probably has to do with the fact that I haven’t had any major changes in a while. The squid turned 4 this month. She’s in the habit of telling me she’s 3, not 4, because Andie said she wouldn’t carry her around anymore now that she’s a big girl. She’s happy and healthy, and that’s all that really matters. Let’s see, what else…oh, Andie celebrated her first anniversary of working at Wal-mart. Jesse’s back at home, or rather, he never left. At least he actually got a job this time instead of just bumming around until the next construction thing comes up. You can see him at your friendly neighborhood H.E.B. selling newspaper subscriptions at a table. My parents are the same as ever, though they seem to have suddenly become motivated to make some money because they just bought a few resell cars and have been working on that. I don’t know if it’s because they need money (which they do) or because my dad needs exercise (he was put on insulin a few months ago). I guess the reason isn’t important so long as they’re doing something other than moping around the house.
Anyway, that’s about it for now. I could bitch about my annoying coworkers or the fact that they keep piling more work on me, but I don’t feel like getting all riled up. I’ll try to write more often.
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I feel much better tonight than I have been in several months. Maybe one of these days I’ll elaborate. For now, know that I am well.
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A new year already?
I haven’t written in a while, and it’s not that there isn’t going on, it just that I really don’t have any drive to write. Home life is good, other than the fact that my brother came back for vacation right before Thanksgiving and still hasn’t returned to work, meaning he’s there bitching about the squid making noise all day and then partying all night. The squid is just awesome. Wild as hell, but happy and healthy, and that’s all that really matters. Work sucks on more levels than ever. I’m stuck in the same awkward situation as before, only I’ve become angry and bitter and every moment of avoided eye contact only makes it worse. But hey, it’s only one more semester, right? I made so many stupid moves over the last few years it’s ridiculous. And with the secretary’s retirement coming up, I’m slowly but surely inheriting all her duties. Just last week I had SPO training. Financial shit. She’s spent years tormenting me and now I get this nice parting gift. I don’t even know what’s going on with my friends anymore. Sometimes I just don’t care. Ain’t life grand?
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maybe this belongs on LJ (ha!)
And I don’t really wanna know
So don’t tell me anymoreWhy must I be the one who has to know?
I’m not the one who messed up big time
So spare me the details if you don’t mind
With the end of a 2-week holiday and the beginning of a new semester, I’m reminded once again of just what I’ve gotten myself into. I should have just kept my mouth shut and avoided the situation in the first place. And as I sit here staring at my screen trying to write, I’m reminded why I don’t write much on this blog anymore.
One who doesn’t care is one who shouldn’t be
I’ve tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me
Don’t talk to me about solitude. You don’t even know.
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Hello Thursday!
It’s finally Thursday! I know it’s not really something to get excited about, but considering the fact that I’ve woken up every day this week thinking it was Thursday, this comes as a relief. Thing is, I woke up today thinking it’s Friday! This week is starting to feel way longer than I expected, which is strange because at the end of every day so far I felt like it flew by. Damn you, impending two weeks paid holiday leave! It’s got me all disoriented.
Work has been a chore, not because I’ve been working so hard (though I do have plenty on my plate), but because people around me have been causing so much drama. I successfully avoided both the staff Thanksgiving and Christmas parties simply by replying to the email to say I would be attending. No questions were asked. I got sick the week of the Thanksgiving party and ended up being out anyway. I considered taking the day of the Christmas party off but stuck around for the lulz. The secretary, who’d made such a huge deal about how the director had personally invited her to both parties despite her not wanting to go, called in old that day. She told me she’d fallen in the bath the night before and tried her best to get me to pity her, but I just took the message and passed it on. My supervisor, who becomes more cynical every day, made a personal call to the secretary. She insisted that the old lady go to the doctor and told her to call back when she was there. The secretary likes to cause personal drama every time attention is drawn away from her, so my supervisor basically called her on it. A few hours later, after my supervisor called again and found her still at home, we got a call from the old lady’s doctor saying she was fine. When she returned to work the next day, her story was very different from the one the doctor had told my supervisor. The whole ordeal was both amusing and sad. Sometimes I feel sorry for her but usually I just want to be rid of her. I’ve put up with her abuse for far too long.
Anyway, it’s Thursday. Two more days until I can leave this place for a good amount of time. We put up a Christmas tree in the office, and not surprisingly, the only ornaments anyone had were from a nativity set. For one day the tree was covered in dirty looking shepherds, farm animals, and a tiny baby Jesus. The next day my boss came to work with a bag full of regular round glass ornaments, and the Jesus tree was no more, which is a good thing because it was starting to unnerve me. I don’t have issues with people putting up their religious stuff, but if the tree’s in my cubicle, I don’t want it. They can keep their religious decorations to their own cubicles, thank you very much. I understand that their religion is important to them, but my irreligion is just as important to me. More importantly, I don’t want their stupid things in my cool van! All ceramic nativity scenes and angels have been moved to their owners’ cubicles.
Other than work, life has been pretty ordinary. My brother came down for Thanksgiving and is still here, but that was to be expected. He probably won’t go back to work until well into January, as that’s his pattern. The squid has been whinier than usual, but I’m hoping it’s just another one of those little kid phases. Mostly she wants and doesn’t want everything at the same time, defies me at every moment, and goes from not wanting to be touched to exceedingly affectionate in a flash. I found a death metal radio station that is just awesome but I can’t seem to find a stream anymore, which is a bummer because they have this one DJ with an Irish accent that just cracks me up. Also learned that headbanging may be hazardous to one’s health in an amusing news article. Anyway, I’m sure there’s more (not really, I’m very uninteresting), but that’s all I’ve got right now. Time to go back to pretending I’m working!
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not dead
I’ve been sick since Wednesday. The first few days were quite unpleasant, the weekend was considerably better, and now I just have these lingering cough attacks. The squid caught it and slept an entire day and a half. Lucky kid didn’t have to deal with the cough.
I tried to take her Christmas shopping the weekend before last, and it worked out alright but every once in a while she asks me if she can have her stuff. She doesn’t forget a thing! I thought maybe she’s young enough for me to get away with shopping with her, but I guess not. I guess gifts don’t have to be a surprise.
So in short, my blogging slump can be attributed to my fairly uneventful life. My kid’s happy and healthy, family is well, and there’s even good news at work. The secretary has announced her retirement plans. That’s right, the countdown to March has begun. Next time she pisses me off I’ll just smile at her and say, “X days.”
And my shirt is on sale! I think it’s time to buy one that fits.
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Attn: Christians
Hi there! Listen, I know you like to think you’re the only true religion and the rest of us are either full of shit or just plain ignorant or whatever, but did you ever stop to think that maybe some of us might be offended when your actions show that you’re assuming everyone else shares the same worldview? Now forgive me if my words are not so eloquent right now, but do understand that I’m being driven by anger at the intolerance and/or ignorance of my fellow man at the moment. So what made me so angry? You’ll laugh, but I’ll tell you anyway because it’s not so much the event that made me angry but the circumstance that I, as the only open atheist in the office, am stuck in. The culprit was a seemingly innocuous email forwarded to me by my supervisor. She’s forwarded religious themed emails to me before, but most were easy to shrug off because they read like greeting cards. Today’s email featured a picture of Billy Graham followed by this:
Billy Graham’s Prayer For Our Nation
THIS MAN SURE HAS A GOOD VIEW OF WHAT’S HAPPENING TO OUR COUNTRY!
‘Heavenly Father, we come before you today to ask your forgiveness and to seek your direction and guidance. We know Your Word says, ‘Woe to those who call evil good,’ but that is exactly what we have done. We have lost our spiritual equilibrium and reversed our values. We have exploited the poor and called it the lottery. We have rewarded laziness and called it welfare. We have killed our unborn and called it choice. We have shot abortionists and called it justifiable. We have neglected to discipline our children and called it building self esteem. We have abused power and called it politics. We have coveted our neighbor’s possessions and called it ambition. We have polluted the air with profanity and pornography and called it freedom of expression. We have ridiculed the time-honored values of our forefathers and called it enlightenment. Search us, Oh God, and know our hearts today; cleanse us from every sin and Set us free. Amen!’
Commentator Paul Harvey aired this prayer on his radio program, ‘The Rest of the Story,’ and received a larger response to this program than any other he has ever aired. With the Lord’s help, may this prayer sweep over our nation and wholeheartedly become our desire so that we again can be called ‘One nation under God.’
Think about this: If you forward this prayer to everyone on your e-mail list, in less than 30 days it would be heard by the world. (It’s worth a try!) One Nation Under God.
There’s so much about this excerpt that I take issue with that it’s hard for me to contain myself when my coworkers are circulating it via email because if I’m getting it from them, I’m sure it’s because it aligns with their belief system. And here I am, the lone atheist (the only openly atheist anyway), and I can’t say a damned thing. Can you imagine the backlash if I started forwarding Dawkins or Hitchens emails? Even a simple reply requesting that I not be included in these forwards in the future would make me a pariah in my department. I’ve done the reply thing before, but that was when I worked in a different department and didn’t have to deal with the offenders. Why does society (and my conscience) force me to be tolerant when others can’t be bothered to extend that same courtesy?
So I’d like to take a moment to ask all of the Christians who don’t think about the rest of us before they send off those emails to take a look at the people around them and get to know them and learn to RESPECT them. Not everyone shares the same worldview, and let me tell you, the world would be a much better place if we all learned to respect our fellow man. You don’t have to respect my beliefs, but do respect my right to hold those beliefs as I do yours.
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not politics…oh wait..
While the election results have me distracted, there are few things nagging at me. I’m not going to write about them or even talk about them, because in the end it comes down to a matter of a lack of respect for me and a wounded ability to put my trust in those closest to me because of said disrespect.
But you know what? Even that splattered egg that was in my doorway this morning (the squid got up way early and found a way to entertain herself) isn’t going to ruin my mood because Barack Obama won and the democrats are in the majority again. What a great election this has turned out to be! He probably won’t be able to deliver on all of his promises, but hey, what politician ever could? He’ll be under enormous pressure, what with the economy being what it is. That combined with the fact that he just made history for not only African-Americans but all minorities means he’ll be under tremendous scrutiny as well. But he was able to handle everything his opponents threw at him during the campaign with grace, so I have no doubt that he’ll be able to handle anything else they cook up. I can’t wait to see him in action. I can’t even describe how this makes me feel, I’m so riddled with emotion. The closest thing I can come up with is…patriotic.
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